Food Frustrations: I want Some Carbs!!

Food is an absolute passion of mine, which makes very little sense considering how much of it I can't eat. I am allergic to gluten, dairy, eggs (it was really easy for me to make the jump to vegan), yeast, corn, soy, blueberries, cranberries, strawberries, pineapple, peppers, tomatoes, and a few other things. On a vegan diet, losing tomatoes and peppers was rough. I avoid potatoes and alfalfa sprouts on principle. Alfalfa sprouts contain an amino acid that is known to kick up symptoms in some patients. I also avoid sugar, potatoes, tomatoes, peppers, and starches because they can increase inflammation. Meat falls into a similar bucket, and it just really isn't that appetizing anymore with all of the reading I have done. Stack on top of that the fact that I'm on a low glycemic diet because of candida and the detoxing I am doing for heavy metals, and I'm very close to the edge, people.

I very nearly raided a stash of raw vegan chocolate today. My husband was very helpful and wanted to know if he should eat some in front of me to make sure it was still OK. The normal response would be to laugh it off or to say, "Just eat it so I don't have to." Instead, guess what? I nearly flew off the handle because I felt so bad I couldn't have some and that he was going to be "insensitive" and mow down on it in front of me. OK, it is still insensitive, but it happens and he and everyone else is used to eating stuff in front of me without me saying or thinking much of it. It's stuff I really shouldn't be eating anyways, right? I enjoy my diet, right? Well, yes, to both points, but I am pretty sick of food as I know it.

I know it's not really healthy to be so fixated on food. Usually it's a matter of filling up and eating whatever. I don't want to blame it on hormones. I was thinking on the way home what I missed most. It used to be bread, cheese, crackers, etc., but today I was honestly craving fruit. Any kind. Doesn't matter. Preferably the beautiful peaches that are nearing the end of the season. What happens if I snap and just eat a ton of fruit? Apocalyptic bathroom time. Awesome.

I need to go to some kind of Foodie's Anonymous. I have been throwing myself into baking a food blog. Social networking baffles me and I have no idea how to promote a blog. This is becoming more and more obvious. It doesn't help that there are over 5,000,000 food bloggers in the world. I just assumed mine would be instantly popular because...well because things taste good. I'm dreaming of a way to make a career out of food, but I'm not really sure how to get from point A to point B.

On the up side, I feel pretty good. The B12 shots have helped with energy, and I'm not having as many lupus symptoms. I'm still a little moody (I know, the post wasn't obvious enough), and the rain has me moving up and down the stairs a little slower. The LDN is still working for me. I have been on-again off-again about supplements. After taking so many for so long, you kinda get pill fatigue, but I need to start them up again or I'll start whining about joint pain, etc.

Having our dog, Annie, around has been a joy. She's very high energy, loves chasing laser lights, and squeaking toys non-stop while you're on the computer. In fact, that's what she's doing now:

She's also a Master Hunter of all things bugs. We're so proud. There's nothing cuter than a puppy pouncing on something imaginary (or not) in the grass.